do you ever feel like the harder you try, the worse you (or things) get? cause me too. life’s hard. being a good person is hard. having a good attitude is hard. staying happy is hard.
what do you do when you feel stuck and down in the dumps?
i usually cry. or talk to my mom about it. or post 50 times on my spam instagram account. or write in my journal.
i feel like, for me at least, it’s really hard to be the person i want to be. like i want to be free and silly and fearless and bold. and i feel like when i finally am, i get shot down and the motivation to be free and fearless is gone. like a couple days ago, i saw someone i knew from my english class in public and i said hi and he barely smiled while his girlfriend rolled her eyes at me and it kind of hurt. it’s 3 days later and it’s still bothering me. but having thought about it some more has made me realize that that’s their problem. the way they handled that situation speaks to their character. i don’t know who, but someone once said, “it’s better to be the one who smiled than the one who didn’t smile back.”
so stuff like that happens. so what? why let it bother you for the next week? accept that it happened and that it’s not your problem and move on and continue to be yourself.
i don’t know why it’s so hard to be a human sometimes. i don’t know why it’s so easy to let what people think of you affect you, but it is. and it’s normal. that doesn’t have to define you though. i think what defines you is how you handle that.
today, i want to encourage you to not let other people’s issues be your issues, like i don’t need to let that awkward encounter bother me anymore. i want to let you know that doing the hard thing and being the right kind of person is worth it.
galatians 6:9 “let us not become weary in doing good, for at the right time, we will reap a harvest if we don’t give up.”